Books

I am writing two personalized childrens books for two of my nephews. I couldn't find one I liked on line, so I decided I was going to write my own. I have one story finished and am working on illustrating the second page. The second story is in the editing process (did I mention I was my own editor too?) and I'm making some changes to the whole story itself, but they're good changes. I'm really enjoying writing these stories, however, I don't know if I can have them done by Christmas. I am a slow artist and I have many pages to draw out and color. But I'm determined to finish this, and as long as I work hard on this it will happen. Even if the only people who read these stories are my nephews and sisters, that's enough for me.

Living In Spite of

"The Expendables,"...fantastic movie!! Definitely recommend it to all who love action, and it's funny too! 

I accepted a C25K (couch 2 5K in 9 weeks) challenge, and I'll tell you what, I haven't ran in 15 years. I always wanted to start jogging, you know runners always make it look easy, but I never really got around to it. I have now decided it's something to make an informed decision about. If I still want to run at the end of the challenge (provided I don't suffer or aggravate injury) I'll continue. If not, well, I can't say I never tried. Right now, on day 2, I don't think I'll continue. IT FLAT OUT SUCKED!!!!!!!!!! Course I'm out of shape and my cardio lacks too so that could be influencing my decision a little. :P

I have always believed you never know until you try, and I have forgotten that. At the top of my page is a quote I have chosen to live by. "...life is full of experiments, the more experiments you make the better." What a fantastic way to say live life and don't be afraid to try new things and make mistakes. 

Some of us believe we only get one chance on this Earth, and if we do, then why are we wasting it on our asses watching television, or whatever we do that prevents us from living?

I am writing this blog for two reasons, 
a.) because I am so excited I have chosen to take back my life in full force, and
b.) because on those days I forget, I can use this to remind me that it's not ok to watch life go by and not try because you're afraid, or you feel you don't deserve it. 

Fear is a debilitating disease, and it will consume you and your life if you allow it. We all experience fear of all different kinds. The trick is to learn not to master it and conquer it, though if it's possible that's good too, but to accept it, embrace it as part of who you are (that you have fears), and learn to live in spite of that fear. 



Goodnight! :)

Clarification

Let me clarify for you what I mean by taking my life back and renewing the passion I once had. I used to love to do things and figure things out. If I wanted to do it, I didn't tilt my head and say dreamily "oh that would be fun if I could do that..." NO! I said "That's going to be fun!" and I did it! So, I'm going to do fun things and go fun places, but I'm also going to do things that have to get done and take responsibility...for example, no one's going to straighten our finances but us. We aren't too far off the path, but a little correction and we'll be fine. I want to save money, I want to go on vacations, I want to buy new clothes for my new hot body when I've lost the weight I've already begun to drop! These can only be accomplished through money, and not by using our house payment! Next year is my 15 year anniversary and I've never been on a real vacation with my husband. We are going to an island, and I'm going to buy a beautiful wedding dress that makes me happy, and we are going to renew our vows. I will no longer be the person who talks about what has to be done, what I'd like to do, or where I'd like to go. I will be the person who talks about what I've accomplished, what I have done, and where I have been! The only person preventing this is me! He-man actually said it best..."I have the power!" (heh-heh, I love he-man, used to watch it all the time). Now that that's off my chest, it's time to pick up my babes. I have 3 fabulous children that make my life phenomenal, and I couldn't live without them. I've been cleaning all day, I feel fantastic and great about it, and today is my 14th anniversary so we're doing a movie tonight..."The Expendables," I heard it's great...only one way to find out! :)

BRING IT ON!

So I'm sitting there thinking back and I realize I have lost something along the way. I've lost my drive and my ambition. I've lost my passion for life. I'm 35, 85lbs overweight, and I don't do anything because we have no money. At least, that's my excuse. Who's fault is that? It was at that moment I decided I was taking back the passion I let others talk me out of. I'm taking my life back! When I am sitting on my front porch of my dream home with hubby and we look back, we're going to have some kick-ass memories to share! So let this be the starting point of my journey to a new me. First step: get healthy. I'm almost 20lbs down from original starting point, and I'm feeling fabulous about it! I have a house to make beautiful, a wardrobe to build, children to teach the beauty and wonder of life to, and a life to fill with memories and experiences...BRING IT ON! I'm more than ready!